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I haven't written in this blog for a while... Lack of time, too much work, no computer for some time.... But I'm coming back, just wait....

Beijo,
Paty

Life. Life is good. Wonderful. Full of opportunities. Full of beautiful people. And yet, I'm crying again. Crying because of the failure and faults. Crying because of all the bullying, cursing, looks and gestures. I'm tired. I'm tired, I really am. And I feel there's nothing I can do because I do have two kids with this monster and I can't go away from him. What's the point of being like this? Hasn't he done enough? What kind of miserable soul likes to live like that? How miserable you have to be to keep trying to torture someone you once said you loved? Please, tell me what kind of pleasure comes out of that since everyone ends up getting involved. I want these two little souls to have a nice life and how will that be possible when I can't communicate with their father? I spent the day at the ER yesterday and all I heard was "Keep me posted". How could I have chosen so wrong?
And yet, I'm smiling. I'm surrounded by good people, good friends, good family. I love my work, I love life itself. The duality of life is interesting, to say the least. And by loosing love I found bigger love. By loosing myself I found a girl I never even knew was there. By risking myself I found happiness. Until the moment he makes me cry.