Have you ever had one of those days when you get desperate? When it seems like you'll never coma out of the storm? Today is one of those. And money, as always, money, is the reason. It's incredible how the idea of not having money can shake one to the core, especially if you have little ones that depend on you.
Being a divorced woman, I depend on alimony and child support. After all, during the past 7 years my main concern was to care for the family and not to have a career. And what did I get from all that selfless dedication, hours cleaning, caring for the kids, making sure everyone was taken care of? I got cheated on, yelled at, called names and told I wasn't worth it. Then, after all that, Florida law tells me I have no rights as a woman, that I have to go out there and find my way to care for myself and my children. Once more, I was told I wasn't worth it.
Now, can you blame women that don't want to get married? Women that don't want to have kids? Women that only want to take care of their career? At this point, of today I have no choice but to agree with them and to become a bitter, sad person who doesn't not believe in this world.
And as the storm continues, I see the eyes of my children and I remember I need strength. I need to be here for them. I can't give up. I need to find deep down in me all my powers to come up with a solution, if not for me, for them.
And hope the storm will pass. Soon.
Mood: Sad
Paty
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